Posts about changing skin routines after estrogen/laser treatment, including product cost complaints ("serum costs more than vintage Scotch"); alongside personal posts about relearning friendships and persistent distrust/anxiety ("your brain is LITERALLY in a permanent state of waiting...", "Like wtf you mean you care about me? Impossible.").
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The problem is I am in pain all the time and I have been basically my entire life. You just learn to block it out. I have no idea what’s going on in my body Ever. I ignored a blood clot for 2+ weeks. I think if I was actively dying I’d find a way to shrug it off, which I could be! you never know.
Some resources I have found, in case they help others. www.queermenopause.com/resources
"I need to get through the next three days without the ability to think or eat or stay awake, but thank fuck for the invention of antibiotics anyway, even if they are handing me my arse."
Er..... Um.... You ok your Beakiness?
www.tiktok.com/@strivewiths... I felt drawn to sharing this here because I experience both non-epileptic seizures and epileptic seizures. I too always forget how the people around me meaning my parents, have to see this and remember all of it in clear detail..
"i've hit that point in therapy where bts has become the topic and my therapist said she's going to watch the netflix docu to find out more about them so she can figure out what i mean in our sessions. one thing i brought to her was my confusion that i feel things about bangtan very instinctively"
🤝🏻🤝🏻 i hope everything that is important gets preserved - your kid's friendships and socialisation opportunities, and also your sanity
Just here to say sorry to hear you're feeling that way. While I can't relate to your expriences, I can relate to feeling of being at loss - that's something everyone feels at least once in life. I hope over time things will became clear, so you won't feel they way you do currently . Hang in there
I won’t be around much longer though. I’m sorry you all have had to see my downfall in realtime. I really wish I could’ve been better. I placed too much care in online friends who never saw the full me. I simply cannot go on anymore. Thank you all for putting up with me as long as you did
"Reluctantly acknowledging that estrogen has changed my skin and hair enough that I am going to need new products and a skin routine beyond warm water and a decent moisturizer. Can I explain why serum costs more than vintage Scotch or inkjet ink? No I cannot."
I've been putting it off, for sure. It hasn't been a problem till now for various reasons, but after the laser session last weekend, I think a bit more care is in order.
não posso dormir, o câncer dói mais ainda durante o sono, ele invade o sonho e transforma em pesadelo, agressão física estupro, tortura, eu tenho muito pesadelo com tortura, pessoas têm seus nervos extirpados, a pele removida, e não morrem, elas ficam agonizando com um olhar vazio de pânico, é
Gonna delete all my Wetsand posts after today, because the message of the story is honestly too disturbing for me to keep engaging with. Because 3 days in, I didn’t expect this story to subconsciously bring back something from the past for me..something that happened to my best friend
"Reluctantly acknowledging that estrogen has changed my skin and hair enough that I am going to need new products and a skin routine beyond warm water and a decent moisturizer. Can I explain why serum costs more than vintage Scotch or inkjet ink? No I cannot."
Good luck, NGL this is still something that I haven't managed to get down.
I know Caine is fictional and his actions were wrong. I also want to give him a MASSIVE hug. I've been there before and I know how agonizing it feels. If anyone else feels the same, it's not your fault. I hope it gets better, because you DO deserve better (don't believe anyone who says otherwise) 💜.
I'm stuck at party that I can't leave and everyone else might be having a blast but I want out. I won't be deceived, exploited or any of that crap. It is not worth it. It doesn't feel like a gain. I believe peaceful euthanasia should be accessible here just like Soyelent Green HAHA eat my a s s
"Having to relearn friendships is not easy. Your brain is LITERALLY in a permanent state of waiting for them to go "yeah, I've gotten bored. Fuck you. Choke on a glue bottle." despite how many times they tell you that'll never happen. Like wtf you mean you care about me? Impossible."
Peak post.
"meeting a milestone i've been dreaming about for years definitely gave me about +50 esteem points but to wake up and immediately find out that a fear you've had for the same amount of years came true just knocked me back about -350."
I'm sorry that happened. However that is not something that can be controlled so much. There is definitely leveling yourself out but any kind of relationship is a 2 way street. You both have said many times about approaching subjects with your homies. Pent up feelings and thoughts only feed the bad.
I'm only sucking oxygen b/c of meds-literally, as in my asthma will spiral out of control without multiple meds (and sometimes does anyway). My depression/C-PTSD would easily get to the point where I couldn't hold down a job, if I got off meds. Not criticizing you, just noting. YMMV.
I came to the realization that the reason why these past few months have been fucking batshit crazy is because (1. my life is hard thanks to external factors, but 2.) I am feeling emotions for the first time in years because I’m not ripped 24/7 and dissociated to survive my relationship
I hope you can put a label to it soon! Even if it's not a nice label, it'll make a world of difference in accessing care. If your labels happen to wind up post-traumatic stress, brain injury, or nasal apnea (mine's from a combat injury) then do drop me a DM here, I'm happy to share experiences!
I don't know what post. I feel so depressed and powerless sometimes. There have been times I don't even feel like a person anymore. I was thinking about a show called Walking Dead and how it dramatized how trauma and experiences break and reshape us. IDK what to say. I wish things were different
"i've hit that point in therapy where bts has become the topic and my therapist said she's going to watch the netflix docu to find out more about them so she can figure out what i mean in our sessions. one thing i brought to her was my confusion that i feel things about bangtan very instinctively"
last thing is, i told my therapist i think this entire season is going to end with me finally figuring out how to be loved, and i think it may mean i finally figure out how to better meet someone i want to be with, and to hopefully love for a long and fulfilling time.
"I just finished my first bottle of avocado oil, and it kinda reinvented the way I cook, so I feel weirdly bad about throwing the empty bottle away. Meaning that I am a sixty-year-old man who eulogizes the trauma of his leavings. #DoingBetterTogether"
Thing is, I feel like I have kinds of "synesthesia" that they no way have names for. www.youtube.com/watch?v=nMN2...
Scared is the right reaction, but don't let it overwhelm you. You'd be stupid not to be scared, just stay focused, communicate clearly to the medical staff, and let yourself freak out in a safe little corner of your brain. And don't be brave when they say "from one to ten, how bad is the pain?".
"I just finished my first bottle of avocado oil, and it kinda reinvented the way I cook, so I feel weirdly bad about throwing the empty bottle away. Meaning that I am a sixty-year-old man who eulogizes the trauma of his leavings. #DoingBetterTogether"
@capnmariam.bsky.social Purely, literally for you, kid. 🫡
"meeting a milestone i've been dreaming about for years definitely gave me about +50 esteem points but to wake up and immediately find out that a fear you've had for the same amount of years came true just knocked me back about -350."
Someone who's willing to drop someone so quick without even a discussion, after you've made it very clear on socials why you do all this, is firmly past wanting to have a lil sit down chat.
